Rocky point!

We headed off to Rocky point for our yearly trip with Ryans family and boy did we have fun! I was real nervous heading down their because I still feel so horrible, but ended up doing fine and having a blast! Rhonda and Steve are so good and make sure everything is taken care of so we have nothing to worry about, just relaxing and having a good time. The water is absolutely amazing it is soooo warm and beautiful we sat down in the sand while the tide was out and the big boys all skim boarded while the kids looked for hermit crabs in the tide pools it was amazing I wish cali had that warm of water then I might actually get in:) We cant wait for next years trip to bring our new family of 6 WOW how crazy does that sound!
Man I love these two, Cash is definitely a daddy's boy!
Off to xochies for the best breakfast burritos you will ever have! Don't tell my doctor, he said not to eat the food down their while I am pregnant, but I couldn't resist!

Cash was loving his homade tortilla!

Holy Crap!!!!

As most of you have already heard we found out that we are having a baby GIRL!!!!! I am beyond excited and am so anxious to meet this new little member of our family. The day we found out that we were officially having a Girl, Ryan left and took the older boys to father and sons and so off Cash and I went to purchase our first pink stuff! It soo doesn't seem real and probably wont until she in born. We bought pink pacifiers, pink bottles, pink onsies and went out the next morning with my mom and bought the cutest pink diaper bag I have been drooling over! And now its mine!! This next part is for me, to remind me that we are officially done after this one because I seem to forget how bad my pregnancies are:( This pregnancy has by far been the worst and most difficult. I tend to get migraines when I am pregnant but can usually keep them controlled with a little bit of medication, well the little bit of meds is not doing much this time around and I have been in constant pain daily. I have a headache all day everyday I just don't know from day to day if it will be a migraine day or if I can make it through the day with some extra meds which makes me feel horrible that I am even taking. My doctor reassures me that It is fine and I need not worry. I have been in the hospital 3 times because my head gets so bad that I cant stop throwing up and in turn am getting dehydrated, I can't move from my bed and can not function! I normally am up around 20 or more pounds by now but instead am down 10 pounds, can't seem to keep anything in either way:/ I could continue but I will stop hopefully just by reading this it will be a good reminder to myself that we are DONE!!! I hate to complain about any of this because we went through so much to get pregnant and all of my pregnancies are miracles! My babies are all early Cole 4 weeks early but 7pds 8oz, Crew 5 weeks early and 7Pd's 11oz and Cash was 6 weeks early and 6pds 12oz, I make big babies and thank goodness they have all been healthy I just hope and pray that I can start feeling better so I can be healthier for this little girl and she can grow as big as her brothers, maybe we can even cook her a little longer than them to make sure all is well. I am beyond thankful for this pregnancy and just keep reminding myself that in the end it is all worth it! I can't wait only 4 more months, but who's counting....

Random pics

Before, seemed like such a good idea! So they thought.
After:( poor Chance.



We were able to take a fun quick trip to the Arizona grand and few weeks ago. We had a really good time and practically had the place to ourselves, we will defiantly go back the boys loved it.

I am so sad to say that our dog Tank has passed away, so suddenly and so sad. He was a little stinker and chewed everything he came across but was really a gentle dog, we don't know exactly what happened but we do know he was being well taken care of and in a happy place when he died. We will miss you Tank.

Easter morning hoping that the Easter bunny had come, and boy did he ever! They got tons of candy and yummy treats, and an actual visit from the Easter bunny! They didn't quite know what to do Crew gave him a hug Cole cried and hid and Cash just stared it was so cute!

Catch Up!

Dyeing Easter eggs with friends, we had so much fun and Cash had a blast squishing all the eggs.




I was trying so hard to hurry and get these cookies cut out and baking before the kids realized what I was doing, well it obviously didn't work!

It's been a very long time since my last post, and I am sad I have not been documenting the fun things going on in our life right now. These last few months have been absolutely crazy but also very exciting in our family, as most of you know we are expecting our 4Th baby!!! We are all sooo excited and my boys ask me daily if I am having the baby today, it is going to be a long 6 more months! I am 14 weeks and soooo sick, I have never been this sick before I have been losing weight not gaining and normally I would be excited about this but not when I am pregnant and not when I feel so horrible! I did my fair share of gaining during fertility to get pregnant with this little buba, so I am in no hurry to gain but just ready to not feel so sick. Every one knows we were done, well Ryan was done I always wanted 4 but after we had Cash Ryan was done and said he was not budging! So on I went to fix the lovely tummy that three pregnancies had given me and ended up having to have a second surgery to fix it, and then to my surprise Ryan said to me one day he didn't know if we were finished! Holy #@#!@! are you kidding me!! Could you have told me this two surgeries ago and lots and lots of pain and recovery!!! Well, I guess now you know what my answer was and we are beyond excited! We had to go through invitro to get pregnant this time, and I would not wish it on anyone it is a very emotional and difficult thing to have to go through, but I am also sooo thankful for it, and our amazing doctor who has helped us in being able to have the family we have always hoped for.

GARTH!!!

A few weeks ago we were able to take a fun trip to Vegas to see Garth!!!! Anyone who knows me knows I was just a little obsessed with Garth, ok a lot obsessed with him growing up. So as soon as we found out he was doing concerts in Vegas I had to go, no questions asked! It was sooo fun we were able to go with my mom and dad, Dre and N, Bob and Lisa, Dave and April and Aaron and Lisa, what a blast we ate yummy meals, shopped, slept in, and went to the most amazing concert I have ever been to! I honestly can't tell you how amazing it was and that if I have any say in it I will be going back!!

I just wanted to write down a few things about how I have been feeling lately. I am not so sure why but I am more and more in love with my boys every day. I have had this overwhelming feeling of appreciation for them and everything they do, to take it all in and enjoy and love all that they do. I have always loved my boys more that I could ever explain but life just throws things at you to make you realize and soak in how much you love them, if that makes sense. Its scares me , If kids can bring you soo much love from the moment they are born and it only continues to magnify I am in big trouble, they are never leaving me!!! I think back to when Ryan and I thought we would never be able to have children and how amazingly heartbreaking that was, to now being able to look at my 3 boys running around in front of me is beyond amazing. I wish I had had a blog while we were going through fertility to get our boys because it is such a life changing experience to go through and also an amazing experience to go through. I wouldn't wish it on anyone because it is horribly emotional and beyond stressful, but I am so thankful for the knowledge we have to be able to help those with problems that are keeping them from having the family they have always hoped for. Just alot of rambling but what has been going on in my mind and I wanted to write it down. THANKFUL.
I love it when I work so hard on dinner then turn around to find this. My meals aren't that bad boys;)
I guess he wasn't finished taking his bath!
My sweet little Cole. I love this little boy of mine, but man trying to get a picture of him is impossible! I am constantly trying and some how some way he has got to make it goofy! I hope he grows out of this stage soon!!!1

This is where I found Cole and his friend Blake, I don't know why I was even a little shocked, but I was and then said wait don't fall I have to get my camera! Then proceeded to tell him to never do that again, and of course it is my crazy child that is the furthest up!
Crew and Cole with their best friend Chance. Chance and Crew have been the best of friends since 6 months on and then came along Cole and they are all three best buddies! I absolutely love it! Today I came walking in to find them just sitting there playing the wii and Cole with his arm around Chance not even thinking about it, they sat there like that for a half hour it was toooo cute.